We all can feel sometimes:
-out of control
...like no matter what we do, is not good enough, like we are in a passenger seat and somebody else direct out life...
It is very normal. The key is not to stay too long in this mindset.
If you need to get a better perspective try the below technique.
Imagine you are 80 years old, looking back over your life. What have you done to make you feel proud?
This should allow you to look at your life from a different perspective. I encourage you to write down this answer. We think differently when we think on a paper.
What you have to loose?
All the best!